Ok, here’s the thing: you’re on the right path. You’re doing well. You’ve headed out onto the new road, and you’re making your way. This is all good. Now is the time to take a break for a second and check the map. Do some meditation and journeywork to unlock new abilities and information that you need going forward. Don’t get boxed in by others’ ideas about what you should be doing, or throw away (or otherwise waste) your energy on things that don’t matter. Flow forward — you are on a roll of inexorable forward energy, so ride it as far as you can and just hang on.
Today’s draw is about how we allow ourselves to be moved by our convictions. Do we dig too deeply into things better left alone because we feel entitled by our drive to prevent disaster? Are our fantasies driving us into areas that we don’t belong in? We need to be careful about that. We are being reminded that there is more going on than we can see, and that what we are perceiving as magical exceptionalism (e.g., “the gods want me to have this,” “I am the special one”) is in fact a reflection of the gifts we were given to share with others, not to crow about. Sometimes our convictions are wrong, or they have disastrous consequences. Maybe we thought we were right at the time, and we might even have been right, but the consequences of our actions have been devastating for more than ourselves and they represent things that cannot be fixed or undone. The best that can be done now is to acknowledge guilt and wrongdoing, make amends, and move on. There is new growth happening, and the best way for it to grow is to clear the ground of the detritus of past mistakes.
“A Curious Oracle,” Holly DeFount, “The Giants’ Tarot,” Raven Kaldera, “Das Germanische Götterorakel,” Red Dragon Edition
Today’s draw is complicated, my dears. Honor your dead and pray for (and talk to) your ancestors (and other unseen forces), but also beware of how you approach them and what you say. Approach with a sincere heart, because you’re dealing with hugely powerful energies. They are not bound by the same rules that bind you, and may not have the same agenda as you do. (Think of it this way: have you ever had a conversation with a grandparent about your love life? Do they want the same thing for you that you want for yourself? Because no, at least not with me and my Grandma. 😉 But that’s ok; I still love her very much.) Be careful of your resources, and don’t give anything away. Speak respectfully, and seriously, you guys, if you’re going to engage a Trickster God, be very clear that you are in fact engaging with a Trickster God. Shenanigans will ensue, and don’t you dare blame the Trickster God when that happens, because you asked for it. So be respectful and watch your words.
Today’s draw is about going bravely into the dark and dealing with those demons you’ve called up. You invoked them for a reason, so go be a grown-up and deal with that energy. Ask the hard questions, face the things you’ve done wrong, and do what you need to do to make it right. Here’s a thing: in this American culture, we have a tendency to think everything is about and for us–and that cuts in several terribly unhelpful ways. Firstly, we tend to get into an entitlement mindset, like we can (and should) pursue every single idea that pops into our heads and that everybody else in the world exists to help us manifest these ideas (no matter how crazy and unrooted). Secondly, we take everything so personally that when we do something wrong, the process of saying, “Oh, hey, I cocked that up like a motherfucker. Yikes! I’m sorry. Are you able to hear my apology? If not, that’s ok. I’ll wait until you’re in a better space to hear it. Just let me know when you’re ready, and in the meantime I will meditate on what I did wrong and how to avoid doing it in the future, and I will also pursue whatever actions necessary to fix the problem” becomes so daunting and threatening to our well-being that we instead just throw out a breezy “Whoops my bad” and move on, leaving the one we hurt staggering and bleeding, and when they say, “Hey douchebag, get back here!” we feel all butt-hurt and can’t understand why the injured party is being such an asshole. The rest of the world does not exist to make your life easier. If you fuck up, own it and don’t make it someone else’s problem to fix it.
Today’s draw is intense and powerful: the 4 of Swords (in The Giants’ Tarot by Raven Kaldera) depicts the story of Odin going into the land of the dead to consult The Volva to discover how to stop Ragnarok. The Volva is angry at being disturbed, and the lesson is to be careful what and who you raise in your quest for answers that might not actually serve you. The rune for today is Eihwaz, and the charms are The Skull, The Book, The Scales, and The Peace Symbol—all of which are reflecting the wisdom of the card in a really powerful way. There isn’t much I can add here (and I’m actually still vibing from it and sifting it out). Be wise about the questions you’re asking, and be prepared to sit in silent contemplation of the question rather than going in mad pursuit of the answers. Some answers are not meant for us at this time. When you do go in search of answers, you will be crossing borders and boundaries into places that have their own rules and laws, so be careful. Proceed from a place of humility, or better yet, leave the question in peace and just wait.
Today’s draw is the Four of Swords (The Volva), with the rune Dagaz and The Bouquet, The Sun and Moon, the rune Gebo, The Computer, and The Cross. Now is the time to slow down and withdraw, and there are blessings for doing that. Here is your mantra for today: “Not my circus, not my monkeys.” Leave the drama alone, unplug from social media for a little while, and get out into the sun. See what’s really there–let your own common sense pierce the clouds of other people’s crap.